202. ocean

please do not be a hypocrite
I am the same ocean
that you love on sunny days
that you bring your family to
that you play beach ball on
I am the same ocean
that you come for sundowners
host parties and day outs
engagements and weddings
I am the same ocean
that you abandon
when my water boils
and morph into a storm
with magnified strength
I scream for help
I need you to calm me down
yet you scatter and hide
block all contact, cut me off
you vanish when I need you
a hypocrite
yet I am the same ocean
I’m forced to fight demons alone
all night till my energy depletes
then fall asleep in my tears
only to see you the following day
in beach shorts and tan sandals