203. charmed

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love so heavy that
gravity keeps pulling
back to the center of soul
feel every bit
gradually swaying towards
mind tries to resist
but heart grows weaker
and love gets stronger
scared that
won’t pick up this time
once down, again

202. ocean

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please do not be a hypocrite
I am the same ocean
that you love on sunny days
that you bring your family to
that you play beach ball on
I am the same ocean
that you come for sundowners
host parties and day outs
engagements and weddings
I am the same ocean
that you abandon
when my water boils
and morph into a storm
with magnified strength
I scream for help
I need you to calm me down
yet you scatter and hide
block all contact, cut me off
you vanish when I need you
a hypocrite
yet I am the same ocean
I’m forced to fight demons alone
all night till my energy depletes
then fall asleep in my tears
only to see you the following day
in beach shorts and tan sandals

197. lego

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each lie you told
took a block off me
like brick from a wall
love blinded my vision

each truth you told
added a new block on top
rekindled the fire in my heart
felt like a queen with a king

my knees are now crumbling
I have nothing to hold onto
you added weight to my head
before replacing my missing blocks

195. falling

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she opened up her heart
fell for him deeply
he consumed her
like fire crunching dry paper
left her with a hollow heart

she opened up her my mind
fantasies blocked her thinking
he pulled every string of reason out
churned and turned her brain
left her with scrambled thoughts

she opened up her body
intense contractions caramelized her
he made her quiver and jiggle
tantalized every inch
left her with hungry feels

she forgot her light when they met
she was transparent to his light
rays from a dim soul
when he left
she had no light of her own

194. bones

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don’t stare into my eyes
for fear camouflages in smiles
i am not nervous, just shy
hold my hand, don’t let go
for you are dead inside
yet i am unfamiliar with love
dust off fine rust from my nerves
contrast my pure lust with trust
teach me
to crust these weak emotions
with faceless feelings

187. steps

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move with me
take each stride of hope
I am hopeless without you
sing with me
I want to be free again
you fill up my chords that miss
dance with me
I want to feel energy
from your soul to my heart
walk with me
through this chaotic world
I need you on my side

186. cleave

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distance has made my vision blurry
I hope less and wish more
a stranger’s smile triggers back your face
memory of how we first met
color of clothes rekindle bits of you
reminders of your touch and ‘stupid’ smirk
a good set of indifference
crushed and laced with awkward character
yet remorse and sorrow you plea
I present my dark soul in a broken mirror
for distance is just but a mere excuse
for fear of my mind to face the truth
so I scale up this indifference

182. scuba

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I took a dive in the sea of passion
Naive yet ambitious to explore
I was ready to see deeper beauty
I wanted to feel its weight on me
I swam with the fish and the weeds
It was so beautiful that I needed more
But pressure was crushing my bones
My oxygen tank got drained out
The blue waters turned dark
I got stung by jellyfish
I sank too deep